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Nothing is the same Even with the knowing  That change is constant  Was it ever really real Did i feel what I really feel Nothing seems really Floating Gliding Far from hiding  Which way  That way No one to trust  In that way She's gone he's gone They are all gone But I am still here Still thriving With all of you  Right beside me  I wish you could see it But I know if you were here I wouldn't be in it

What is good bye When nothing last forever  What is the past  When the present  Only exist What is wrong When learning is the only constant  Why do we pray with our heads down If God is above us Why do we apologize  When we really do what we feel How can you call me fake If you never experienced  My real What was heard If we experience the same song Who knows If nobody really shows How far is too far When there is no limit Can you it still be deep If you not all the way in it What is pain really If it can also be pleasure Why are some days longer then other And by what measure  Do we speak freely  Just to be unheard  Do we really listen To the nouns and the verbs Do our actions really speak And do our words do the moving 37years and this shit still confusing  10 year for me So I'm starting back at one Theses question will stay questions  When it's all said and done!

They never lie  I go to pull They jump out  Not quietly  They scream and shout Not again  Thought that road was distant  Blocked off Non existence  But you always gotta look back And be so persistent  Putting yourself in a pattern That you know will end  Too afraid to start something new Well really it would be new to the world  Cause for years  You been doing Just keeping it all close Or sharing with those who understand  Or the ones I love most To all the other people  I'm a shell I'm a ghost Never will it phase me  That's what drives em crazy Back to me  The cards They know From now on Ill listen

Tell me you need me Then leave me Come back As if nothing happened  Needing advice  The boldness is nice But scary  How I let people  Back in my life Boundaries Sacrifice  Falling And waiting  I'm tired of this cycle  Get me out this circle Trust  Or be Trusted Loyalty  Is lusted People be trying me

Deflecting  What is  Perfection With little direction  We seek We don't think I am setting boundaries  Taking my power back And I what do for me Anit got shit to do With this or that   Everytime my solar returns I become more aware That life is more then a job A wife And a baby A girlfriend  A boyfriend  I came to my realization  That my life is an Experience  It's not lazy or competitive  It's not about trying to one up It's not trying to paint a picture So it pleases the one whom  Gazes from a far It's not a currency  That you can sea   It's bigger then the seeing eye Could see Brighter then the Sonshine And all this talk about time Is an illusion  Trying to confuse em Most are still asleep In this time of awareness I wanna say more  But I say less  One last question  To ask if you contest Red pill Blue pill  Which one do you thinks best?

 Issa a karmic year  The year of the dragon So don't dragging Everything you let Is coming for you If you do things right You be feeling human When you walk through Because life is more  Then what they tell you Although what is told is swell Oh in life you will do so well Then life begins and we unlearn All things we were taught All the things we thought  Were helping Were hurting Confusing support with enabling  In this year I will be starting all over again