Deeper

 I retreat because I need space  Trying to get my mind right Not into living the basic life Some people are happy with the glitz and glamour  I live for peace and love  So if that means I have to go ghost For all the people in the world you should know the most But the peddle stool I put thee on Seems to to way to high for you  To many times have you gotten off And showed proof Age dont mean nothing Realizing that as I go Just because you have monetary value to make you flow no better Something ain't right in your soul Something keeping you from being whole But that's outta my control Childish and petty  Control is something you will never have Fate

Nothing changes  Things get shifted I'm in the mix It's good till it's not Get what I get Nothing forgotten  I'm stopping myself  In my own tracks  Matter of factly  I will be sad  But I will stand firm Still in a crowded room alone Sitting in my corner  On a bed of air Cause everything is cloudy Only if you want to you will  Really see me 

 A beautiful place for me to be  I think I'm in the in between  Like I want this but I know it's not good for me That's nice too but not hood to me Explicitly  Explaing to myself  My true destiny  I know what's meant for me So now the term waiting patiently  Dosent feel like punishment to me I've felt the discomfort of patients  The agony  I'd be lying if I say that I am patient gracefully  But I'm am gratefully full of gratitude  For this new found attitude that  That I cant seem to outwardly express But I digress  Nothing is really a test It's all a lesson  Every day is a new session So I'm in between classes  Like the masses  Making mistakes  Giving what I have  Without devaluing my being See through the eyes of the soul Not the being  Not always liking what I'm seeing But I'm ok with that too I'm in between letting go and holding on To things that let me go Way before my readiness  I'...