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Inappropriate thoughts  What do I do wit em Guess I'll write em out Anit no pursuing em The time dont permit  What is time I forget Thinking at speed of lights Time  Got all these scenarios on my mind I wanna go and watch and touch and be I wanna be caught off guard see I want to be in my most explicit  Explicitly  Whispers and whimpers  Eyes lost locked and mesmerized  Caught in the same matrix Moving fluently  Symphony  Wavelength real wavy No words  Telepathic shit Heavy on the things that are  Not so ordinary  Grunts and screeches Silence and screaming  Taking your breath so that I can  Breathe  OMG Yall dont feel me Shivers from anticipation  Mind blank Zombie like Autopilot  But I'm the flight  Tussle a little  Maybe play fight The scent  Is drowning  Swirling  Sneaking Peaking You cant even imagine what I'm seeking

 What do you do when there is nothing to do, What do you say when words fall astray, flick em like ashes, But nothing is understood but this is missed, But nothing like a memory is to be reminisced, Gratitude is a new word everyone is using, misused though, Attitude is more like the tune I feel to often, my wavelength sensitive, its the way I live, its the adjective, a project, my dialect, respect cause I get none, and my heart weigh a ton, What's done is done but its never over, Sober or not the picture is clear, trying to get out of , hearing what I dont want to hear, Eyes closed real wide, who am I to decided, where do I hide, who does one confided in, when its deep inside they are hiding, like a hid in, I get hi den. 

Years roll, Days stoll, Weeks glide Months hide What we dont see  Becomes so clear Everything that seem so far Gets closer The doses of life that we take Are full But nothing we do is understoood When did we become What they made us When did we loose  What really makes us We woke  But do you really remember the first time you did wake up The breakdown turns into brake up Looking and questioning What is my make up No stake in what Where is it  Who took it How do I get it back Or is this another tis for tat This for that Confronting  Not fronting On whats in front of me A mirror Clearer  Then see through  Seeeeeee Do you Seee Dont say seee Feel  Heal Reveal What is really real? Its what you really feel Its if you really heal Its if you really reveal  Are you really free Living loving  Freely  Are your really true To what is to be of you Can you really say that your ok Without that thing in your subconscious mind Screaming back at you