The in between

 A beautiful place for me to be 

I think I'm in the in between 

Like I want this but I know it's not good for me

That's nice too but not hood to me

Explicitly 

Explaing to myself 

My true destiny 

I know what's meant for me

So now the term waiting patiently 

Dosent feel like punishment to me

I've felt the discomfort of patients 

The agony 

I'd be lying if I say that I am patient gracefully 

But I'm am gratefully full of gratitude 

For this new found attitude that 

That I cant seem to outwardly express

But I digress 

Nothing is really a test

It's all a lesson 

Every day is a new session

So I'm in between classes 

Like the masses 

Making mistakes 

Giving what I have 

Without devaluing my being

See through the eyes of the soul

Not the being 

Not always liking what I'm seeing

But I'm ok with that too

I'm in between letting go and holding on

To things that let me go Way before my readiness 

I'm staying steady with this

Hard not to be petty with this

But that's in my physical 

My mental wont allow me to be defaced

Or half assed embrace 

I'm in the in between of

I hear what you saying but that's not what you mean

Because people be lying on themselves 

To themselves 

For other people that will never be equal to there worth

But when you dont know your worth anything is worth it 

Surf and turf but allergic to butter

You see what I'm mean 

I'm in the in between