I Bet

 You didn't know I bet myself, knowing I wasn't what you wanted, I bet myself, on a love of two healing souls, I let myself, let go, or did I let go of who I was growing into, I hid myself in the soft love, that protected me from things that I have never seen, wrapped myself in a comb, the queen bee, couldn't touch me when I was with thee, in this sea I floated freely, stopped betting on me, Started betting on we facilitating my new life in my mind, young and blind, Not even know enough about me, filling my space, then woke up one day empty, subconsciously I knew, inside of me the parts that made me, was still betting on me, but did that mean without thee,for years I tried to make sense of it, how could "real love happening" feel like a stabbing bliss, now like it never existed,what we had never existed,what we were was all in my mind, I bet you didn't know I bet myself, lost myself, but not one minute did I regret, look at us now. Living the lives we dreamt in the snowiest of weather, I woulda lost a bet if someone bet me we wouldn't be living it together.